Mommy's Back!

Whew!

It's been some serious recovery for me - I am still not back to 100%, but am a million times better just the same. The first two weeks were such a blur as I was so weak and all I could do was take care of Nahanni while Ez took phenomenal care of me/us. When things get as grave as they did with this post partum time, you really see what people are made of and I saw that my husband took doting care of me and the baby - literally feeding me the best diet for me to get well. His care went above and beyond and we will never forget it. It was also a time when you see who your friends are and I cannot thank our friends enough for the calls, meals and support - you know who you are and we love you for it - thanks a million.

Lola and Grandpa are here now and that has been a big help too - although it makes you realize how much easier it would be to have family close by - but I suppose that's where friends become family. I am recovering well and we are getting to know our little girl - so far she seems to be pretty mellow, right up until the second she gets mad and then, she's a bit of a demon! She turns an alarming shade of red and screamed herself hoarse when I had the fever, it was awful. Otherwise though, she really is a darling good baby and she is now awake more and we are starting to hear her little coos and clucks and delight in every sound.

I'm sad that I haven't been able to really keep up with things in these first weeks of her life - both for her and for me, but it just was survival mode and that's just that. I want to write about her amazing home birth and about the harrowing time after, about these first weeks of parenthood, becoming a mother, the agony and the ecstasy - the whole thing, but you can only do so much... I've stored it away in my brain and will bring it out soon.

One thing I can say - I'm in love! I'm in love! I'm in love!