Ode to the Adored Second Baby

Oh, and you are adored! Already, you have captured me in depths and ways I could not have foreseen. I have spent every waking hour since your birth trying to swallow whole the experience of you. I have eaten the smell of you like it was my last supper and I lament its passing, bit by bit as the hours between your birth and now grow longer. I am astonished that ever I doubted for one second that I wasn't ready for you. I see now how clearly you are my destiny, and perhaps I will learn even more from you than from Nahanni. I breathe you in, hour by hour, try to memorize you like a lifeline that will keep me alive. I revel in your tiny features, you beautiful and delicate face. And I am so grateful. I thank you for having the courage to come to me, for knowing that I needed you more than I knew I did. Thank you for choosing me, little one. I love you, I love you, I love you...